Episode 31-Young Men Throw Rocks

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This weeks tune, "Young Men Throw Rocks", comes from a mix of War of The Worlds imagery from early on in the story, the imminent threat rather than the actual invasion, which to me is the best part, and also the heftiest. It also is a mix of a whole bunch of other images and ideas about machines and such that my brain has gathered over the years, one such image being from the Japanese animated film, Roujin-Z where a machine designed to care for old folks, in which lives an old man, (sort of alive, but not really, the film is very much on the side of not submitting old people to inhumane treatment, the machine being I think a sign of things to come, or maybe of a terrible care system for old folks in Japan at the time?), is inhabited by the spirit of his dead wife and goes on a rampage, collecting bits of other machines and things on it's way to the ocean, where it's taking the old man, growing larger and large as it goes. Great film it was, I recommend it, has a lot of heart. Anyhow, the image of the hulking, foreboding robot from that film is definitely an image my head was attaching itself to while I wrote this song. There's a hint of steam punk in there too, the machine in the song is old, cogs and such, spurting steam, rusty and clunky and slow. Hope you like it anyways. Be back next week with more.

Episode 30-Vedi

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The 30th episode folks. Feel like a big number but I hope to keep it up and bring you some bigger ones. Anyhow, this song originated from the fact that I sometimes listen to ASMR videos on YouTube to help me get to sleep, these are videos of people who talk softly and calmly, they help you relax ,or if you have what they call ASMR, (Autonomous Sensory Modular Response), you get a but of a head tingle from the sound also. Point here is though, I listen, I don't watch, headphones in, eyes shut. Recently however I had a look at who was talking at me and it was a girl with a black eye, so I made up an abusive relationship for her, gave her a name and put her in a song. She was a little down on herself in her introduction and such so I extrapolated quite a large amount. So, probably she's just a boxer or something? But anyway, this doesn't illegitimate the tune, abuse exists, and that's what the song's about. It's kind of a futility view on things I guess, people put up with a lot for a little because they don't feel they deserve more, or that more exists. "We accept the love we believe we deserve", (Stephen Chbosky, The Perks Of Being A Wall Flower).

Episode 29-Wrong Is Alright

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Here's episode 29, a song about a realisation I've been having that I , even though I fight it like a crazy man, am just as box placing in of others as is anybody else. This is connected to the idea of turning back to faith minus religion, trying to recapture some faith I guess. I try not to judge people but to some extent we only have our own eyes to look through and see other peoples behaviours and appearances. I'm open minded I'd say, all kinds of behaviours and appearances are alright by me, but there-in lies the problem. Who cares what's alright by me, I'm no god, I'm just some dude being a dude, I need to remove myself a ways from that sort of omnipotent thinking I guess, as do we all, unless you are God. Even saying that is a form of boxing folks, including myself, into a very wide category, which is stupid, people are magnificently individual, and to be learned and appreciated, not sifted through your brain sieve and only paid attention to when you hear something you understand. See, I'm a judgemental little feller hey.

Episode 28-Kamikaze

 

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Here's the 28th episode, this tune is about self destructive behaviours and telling them when to get off, to some extent, and when they're probably understandable too. Maybe? I'm not entirely sure. I realise calling a song Kamikaze and putting that word in the chorus is maybe a little obvious, but it's a pretty spot on word I think, at times. We've all probably been in that kind of state at one point or another, for an actual Kamikaze pilot it was glory and devotion but what I'm talking about is just not caring to some extent, being in limbo and just ploughing through like a bull with porcupine skin. Abstract as I hope this song is, it's also kinda' personal, and look, most of the time I'm not doing too badly I hope, but honestly, sometimes I could punch through and just go nuts, more than sometimes lately, but as a good friend told me, I need to keep the lid on things, not be stirring too many things into an already fairly full pot. The pot can trick you into thinking your stew's all ready to go sometimes, but life isn't like that, there is no finish to anything really, it's learn and keep learning. Not that I'm any kind of expert on anything, but it just kinda' seems that way, that or jump off anyhow.

Episode 27-8 Bit Monsters

 

 

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This weeks tune came from a random attack of the reminiscing. I suddenly unintentionally discovered a very obscure childhood memory about a dismal alien court scene I drew when I was really little, so I chucked it in a song. The song is also about how imagination is essential to my survival, kind of a self defence I guess, an escape hatch, or maybe more like a valve for all the gluggy stuff to come out in a less horrible form than it would take were it to just wear its own honest skin. Hope you like it anyway, it's an odd one, kind of hard to play, took me five or six takes to get it right.

Episode 26-Less Stare, More Sleep

 

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Hello listeners. Here's episode 26, a tune about my need for sleep and sensibility rather than the opposite of those things. In part it's about a failed relationship and some other honest and damning things that I won't go into in detail, nothing too spectacularly dark, just my mental tendencies and such, personal stuff anyway. This is the entirely first ever recording of this song just after it was written so it's fairly rough, but that's kind of the idea with this thing. Thankyou very much for you ears and your time, much appreciated.

Episode 25-Mostly Harmless

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Episode 25 is a little poorly recorded as far as the song is concerned, because this week I've been unwell, so you get the absolutely embryonic lo-fi fuzzy terribly sung with congested voice absolute original original recording of the song I wrote this week, at 2am one night/morning when I was too achey to sleep. It's about good people I think, people who don't base their lives on their own satisfaction and how this is somewhat unconventional in Western society and the like, and how these people can be found in all kinds of places.