Episode 42-Swimming In The Dark

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This weeks tune is a bit of a soul meef, real simple Banjo tune, 3 chords and some super basic lead stuff. I don't think it needs explaining too much. I've been up and down of late, when I wrote this I was down. But it's not all negatives, it's about honesty with God, (I feel wary using religious terms, I'm not religious, I have a faith, a belief in the "Christian" God I guess, but not in religious ridiculousness, and I don't want to cut anyone off, songs are songs whatever they're about), about telling God you feel a bit crap and you want to offload it on him, to blame him, which is not right, but I think he can take the honesty, we need to be honest, it's kind of important.

Episode 41-Cosmic Treason

 

https://ia601004.us.archive.org/21/items/CeskyLivesEpisode41-cosmicTreason/Clep41-cosmicTreason.mp3

This weeks tune is about humanity, imperfection, cosmic treason. If you believe what Genesis says, (literally or otherwise), then we're all made to be perfect; "in the image of God", but we screwed up pretty bad and now were perpetually bound to doing this over and over again. This song is about that, and about making excuses for ourselves when we screw up, (if you're religious, or have some kind of faith or not, we all do this I think), and how picking at each other over faults is fruitless. This song is kind of saying that the way we are around our flaws and mistakes should probably be taken more seriously, we need to admit our faults or we're playing with fire. Agree or disagree, either way, it's also just a song.

Episode 40-I Thought You'd Gone & Died

 

https://ia601003.us.archive.org/25/items/CeskyLivesEpisode40-iThoughtYoudGoneDied/Clep40-iThoughtYoudGoneDied.mp3

 

This weeks tune is based on a book I read about "pleading the blood" of Jesus, which some people it would seem have historically used as a heretical bit of brain washing "God is a vending machine" kind of thing, but some have just used as something they add to their prayers to remind themselves that they believe Jesus died for them and that that matters and is powerful. I borrowed a book about it from a friend of mine that seemed fairly non-crazy and straight down the line for the most part, (the book I mean, not my friend).This song about it is just a super minimal absolutely simple two chord tune about how remembering what you believe in is a good thing, and not relying on yourself on your lonesome to carry all the garbage that you do is also good. I'm a little worried after learning the opposing view on this pleading the blood thing that I may have been led down some random unhelpful path, but I don't think I have, I certainly trust the source that lent me the book, but I don't trust repetitious meaningless verbalising of chanty stuff, which I can see people could easily fall into using this idea, i.e. say "x" enough times with feeling and "y" will happen, that's just dodgy.

Episode 39-Where The Monsters Are Angels

https://ia601005.us.archive.org/13/items/CeskyLivesEpisode39-whereTheMonstersAreAngels/Clep39-whereTheMonstersAreAngels.mp3

 

This weeks tune is based on a Proverb I read a couple days ago, Proverbs 14:10, about how nobody can really know the joy or bitterness of a persons heart save for them. This is true I think, everybody has their own stuff going on and their own way of looking at things. The song is taking that idea and framing it in my own experience I guess, I feel kind of alien a lot of the time but I still think its incredibly important to try to understand people whether you can do so fully or not.

Episode 38-Somedays You're Like Water

https://ia601903.us.archive.org/8/items/CeskyLivesEpisode38-someDaysYoureLikeWater/Clep38-someDaysYoureLikeWater.mp3

 

This weeks song is a bit of a mystery to me. I know it has something to do with depression, anxiety and such, things I've had/have, this is not oversharing either I don't think, many of us are in the same boat no? Recently my mind, my perspective on pretty much everything has been shifting drastically, hopefully permanently. I've had not an especially difficult external life, but internally it's been a raging mess for way too long and this song I think is about the limbo period I'm living right now, in between that raging mess and whatever it is that comes next. I watched a youtube video on "The Black Dog", a fairly straight down the line illustrated narrated thing about depression and seeing the world through a grey kind of haze, feeling nothing, and I had a bloody good cry, which was great, and important I think, dark things live in us all to some extent, if we don't have a way to let them out they'll stay forever. Some odd and nasty creatures have been living in me for a long time, and I've had enough. It's hard work living with a mind that won't just let you be,  think that's what this song is probably about, that and the hope for a better way.

Episode 37-Damage

 

https://ia601002.us.archive.org/25/items/CeskyLivesEpisode37-damage/CLEP37-Damage.mp3

This weeks song is a Cure-esque/Low-esque, (if you haven't heard Low then check them out, especially if you like the Cure), synthy, crunchy guitar slow tune with minimal lyrics about heavy times and acknowledging them, and surviving them. Surviving them through acknowledgment rather than self medication, further bad decisions etc... It's the result of my current outlook, which is partly cloudy with a chance of showers, clearing someday I'm told if I sit them out, and sit them out I will. The sitting out of these things is really what this tune is about, letting them be, because they just are, whether you like it or not, and riding them out so to speak. Hope you like it.

Episode 36-Steeper Lines

http://ia601902.us.archive.org/7/items/CeskyLivesEpisode36-steeperLines/Clep36-steeperLines.mp3

This weeks song is a bit of a mystery to me, I wrote it fairly quickly after much deliberation with a couple of ideas that just weren't working, it was like popping a pimple, squeezing and squeezing at the thing and then BANG! yellowy stuff all over the mirror. I know some of it is about Jesus, and the way my mind is currently undergoing some reconstruction, some growing up I hope, experience and such pushing me into a new phase of who knows what, but it seems to be positive. Other than that it just is what it is, a bunch of words trying to explain something that I really can't pin down I guess. Have a listen anyways, see what you think.