Episode 68-The Mill & The Wheel

 

https://ia902505.us.archive.org/12/items/CeskyLivesEpisode68-theMillTheWheel/Clep68-theMillTheWheel.mp3

 

Hello listeners. This weeks song is all about the wide road, the easy and the usual way, and how it'll destroy you if you let it. That's my perspective/experience anyways. As almost always it's also a bit abstract and I can't really explain-ish, it is what it is, hopefully it's a good listen anyways. Thanks for your time.

Episode 67-Grown Ups

 

https://ia902506.us.archive.org/10/items/CeskyLivesEpisode67-grownUps/Clep67-grownUps.mp3

 

Hello listeners. This weeks tune is another Mandolin one, it's a new toy I guess, it wants to be played. It's about I'm not entirely sure what, but possibly the uncertainty of becoming an adult person, the way other adult people seem to have it down and you feel like you're barely a quarter of the way there sometimes, (I do anyway), and doing stupid things because your human. I guess that's it, probably some other things too, it's ambiguous, very self deprecating also. I like the word Harlequin as a way of describing the person in this situation, a mute clown, it seems appropriate.

Thanks for you time as always and there'll be more next week.

Episode 66-Daylight

https://ia902506.us.archive.org/32/items/CeskyLivesEpisode66-daylight/CLEP66-Daylight.mp3

 

This weeks tune was written on a Mandolin, my Mandolin, a brand new lovely sounding Mandolin, (yep), anyways, it's my first time playing one so it sounds a little like a guy who doesn't know much about Mandolins but not to the extent that I'll hide the results. This weeks tune is all about a memory that came back to me recently of lying in bed as a tiny person while the street outside was being used as a cricket pitch by a bunch of kids and their parents, hearing it and feeling it and being warm and legs up in the air and that being a great thing.

Thanks for listening.

Episode 65-Shame

 

https://ia801400.us.archive.org/9/items/CeskyLivesEpisode65-shame_489/CLEP65-Shame.mp3

 

Hello listeners. This weeks song is real minimal, it's a simple sleepy kind of ambling song about love in a confronting, honest sense, love that understands the messed up-ness of you and is there to open it up and help you do something about it. I'm speaking spiritually but this is a human thing too, love from people who get you and protect you from yourself, that kinda thing. Hope it's a nice listen anyways, it's really rough, a bit scratchy round the edges, but it is what it is. Like I've said, this podcast is where I broadcast my songs as they come, in their original state, simple as possible, (sometimes I go nuts with odd sounds and layers and the like, but usually simplicity is the way), and if you go to my Bandcamp page that's where you can get a hold of the finished stuff: http://cesky.bandcamp.com/

At this point there's just the one album up there, but I'm workin' on more all the time.

Thanks for listening, I appreciate your time.

 

Episode 64-Surviving On The Details

https://ia902500.us.archive.org/9/items/CeskyLivesEpisode64-survivingOnTheDetails/Clep64-survivingOnTheDetails.mp3

 

Hello. This weeks song is a happy one, oddly enough. My mental state has been improving slowly but surely over the last couple years with help from people who know how to help with such things, and just people I know, friends etc. This song is a thankyou to the God I believe in for making these, (and all), people and for helping me out, and for the fact that we can miss the point for so so very long, (in life, for folks with faith of some kind and those without), until something happens to make us stop and then eventually some sense starts being made. Now I'm certainly not done being mended, nobody ever can be I don't think, that's one of the points we miss, but I'm feelin' pretty stable, hence, a happy song. Next week I'll probably be back reflecting on some nastiness or some sad thing, telling you about a murder I read up on or some persons woes in the news, and there's nothing wrong with that either, that can certainly be a positive, so long as it's honest, but hopefully this one gives you the encouraging vibe I felt while I wrote it.

Thanks for listening.

Episode 63-Ten Years

https://ia600504.us.archive.org/16/items/CeskyLivesEpisode63-tenYears/Clep63-tenYears.mp3

 

Hello folks. This weeks tune is about leaving ill health behind, mentally speaking, I guess, leaving situations that were a bad idea. Less vaguely I guess it's an abstract break up song written a hell of a long time after the event and more retrospective than angry or sad, like I say in the intro though, it's not about the bad guy or good guy or any of that stupid crap, it's more general than that, the way people are, the things they do to each other. I can't really pin a proper meaning on it though, it is what ever it is, it'll say to you whatever it says and that's a good thing. I recently read a Bukowski quote about being whatever it is that you are, unashamedly, which is incredibly difficult for most of us I think, and he was probably only good at it because he drank so much, but this song for me is just what came out when I sat down to write, un-tampered with, definitely not pre-meditated, as honest as I can hope for I think, even if it doesn't make much sense to me.

Episode 62-Alcohol

 

 

https://ia902500.us.archive.org/32/items/CeskyLivesEpisode62-alcohol/CLEP62-Alcohol.mp3

 

This weeks tune is about my Amish-like youth, (I watched television, I read books Amish kids would probably slit their wrists over, I played video games, but other than that I was a very contained, very sensible young man), and the way that not doing crazy things when you're young kind of takes away the fun of doing them in some ways when you're older, because you're too old for one thing, but you also have a less "YEAH, LET'S BREAK STUFF AND YELL AT OLD LADIES AND LICK WALLS" kind of an attitude, (which I think I probably would've had when I was younger had I given myself the opportunity to express it, and which sadly now I don't really have because I'm too responsible). That said a person who hasn't gone crazy when young and finds freedom does go crazy, just for me it didn't last a hell of a long time. Other than that there's a lot of weird little visual references to things I remember from childhood that probably nobody will be able to decipher, but I think they add to the feel of the thing as a whole, so I left them in.

Thanks for listening hey, have an excellent day/night/unspecified period of time that you are currently experiencing.