Episode 29-Wrong Is Alright

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Here's episode 29, a song about a realisation I've been having that I , even though I fight it like a crazy man, am just as box placing in of others as is anybody else. This is connected to the idea of turning back to faith minus religion, trying to recapture some faith I guess. I try not to judge people but to some extent we only have our own eyes to look through and see other peoples behaviours and appearances. I'm open minded I'd say, all kinds of behaviours and appearances are alright by me, but there-in lies the problem. Who cares what's alright by me, I'm no god, I'm just some dude being a dude, I need to remove myself a ways from that sort of omnipotent thinking I guess, as do we all, unless you are God. Even saying that is a form of boxing folks, including myself, into a very wide category, which is stupid, people are magnificently individual, and to be learned and appreciated, not sifted through your brain sieve and only paid attention to when you hear something you understand. See, I'm a judgemental little feller hey.

Episode 28-Kamikaze

 

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Here's the 28th episode, this tune is about self destructive behaviours and telling them when to get off, to some extent, and when they're probably understandable too. Maybe? I'm not entirely sure. I realise calling a song Kamikaze and putting that word in the chorus is maybe a little obvious, but it's a pretty spot on word I think, at times. We've all probably been in that kind of state at one point or another, for an actual Kamikaze pilot it was glory and devotion but what I'm talking about is just not caring to some extent, being in limbo and just ploughing through like a bull with porcupine skin. Abstract as I hope this song is, it's also kinda' personal, and look, most of the time I'm not doing too badly I hope, but honestly, sometimes I could punch through and just go nuts, more than sometimes lately, but as a good friend told me, I need to keep the lid on things, not be stirring too many things into an already fairly full pot. The pot can trick you into thinking your stew's all ready to go sometimes, but life isn't like that, there is no finish to anything really, it's learn and keep learning. Not that I'm any kind of expert on anything, but it just kinda' seems that way, that or jump off anyhow.

Episode 27-8 Bit Monsters

 

 

http://ia601007.us.archive.org/31/items/CeskyLivesEpisode27-8BitMonsters/Clep27-8BitMonsters.mp3

 

This weeks tune came from a random attack of the reminiscing. I suddenly unintentionally discovered a very obscure childhood memory about a dismal alien court scene I drew when I was really little, so I chucked it in a song. The song is also about how imagination is essential to my survival, kind of a self defence I guess, an escape hatch, or maybe more like a valve for all the gluggy stuff to come out in a less horrible form than it would take were it to just wear its own honest skin. Hope you like it anyway, it's an odd one, kind of hard to play, took me five or six takes to get it right.

Episode 26-Less Stare, More Sleep

 

http://ia601903.us.archive.org/13/items/CeskyLivesEpisode26-lessStareMoreSleep/Clep26-lessStareMoreSleep.mp3

 

Hello listeners. Here's episode 26, a tune about my need for sleep and sensibility rather than the opposite of those things. In part it's about a failed relationship and some other honest and damning things that I won't go into in detail, nothing too spectacularly dark, just my mental tendencies and such, personal stuff anyway. This is the entirely first ever recording of this song just after it was written so it's fairly rough, but that's kind of the idea with this thing. Thankyou very much for you ears and your time, much appreciated.

Episode 25-Mostly Harmless

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Episode 25 is a little poorly recorded as far as the song is concerned, because this week I've been unwell, so you get the absolutely embryonic lo-fi fuzzy terribly sung with congested voice absolute original original recording of the song I wrote this week, at 2am one night/morning when I was too achey to sleep. It's about good people I think, people who don't base their lives on their own satisfaction and how this is somewhat unconventional in Western society and the like, and how these people can be found in all kinds of places.